Forelsket

I don't think I'll ever adjust

Nothing is how it was before

I look into the mirror and you stare back

But everything is different now

There are these moments...

You stare at me like you always do

Except your face is not the one I know

It's been replaced by a foreign mask 

I'm always so shocked to see it there

Every time I see it, my stomach churns...

In these moments I feel myself falling

And it's not the good kind of falling either

Rather, the painful type that break bones

The crushing type that bursts organs

The heart (of course) being the first one to go... 

I'm not sure why I look at you 

And I'm sure I look like a fool when I do

Your eyes pierce right through me like I'm a ghost 

I don't understand how I'm here but I'm nothing

Like a scribbled pencil mark-- erased then replaced

These are the moments that swallow me whole

I just don't know who's the Villain this time

Hearts built for love now poisoned by hate 

Which one of us is the monster? 

I can't decide, so I cry for us both

"Darkness can only be scattered by light, hatred can only be conquered by love." 

-John Paul II